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mleigh69:

THIS HUG.
This hug was so different than any other they had shared prior
typically, in the past, one or the other would initiate - and sometimes both would go in simultaneously - but always they would reciprocate and typically meet half way at the least.
But here - two things happen
Kurt steps in awkwardly in trying to determine how to approach this desperately needed moment of physical intimacy. He must convey through touch what he can’t find in words right now.
Blaine has changed - but so has he. Although they have been aware of one another - they have not tended to each others needs. Kurt’s guilt drives him into this hug seeking his own forgiveness.
Blaine didn’t respond or reciprocate initially
Still afraid and unsure
He waited for Kurt to wrap his arms around him and pull him into his chest
He heard what Kurt had said - and he knew in his heart it was truthful and honest
But he has a doubt that had clearly been eating him up and letting go of it that quickly just didn’t happen
Kurt didn’t just wrap his arms around Blaine in a “I am here to sooth you way” or to show domination in Blaine’s time of weakness.
He knew that this touch needed to convey a lack of judgment and superiority. He knew this had to show equality and bring them back to middle ground.
 His left arm went under Blaine’s right and wrapped around his back. As his left went around Blaine’s left shoulder and came around to the right shoulder.
It was that touch and grip to Blaine’s right shoulder that brought up Blaine’s right hand to find Kurt’s back and grip with his fingers.
Immediately following with his left arm and hand which found hold on Kurt’s left shoulder.
Blaine didn’t just return the hug at this point - he grasped onto Kurt. absorbing and accepting all that Kurt was giving him.
Once they settled into the hug - they existed in this moment for just them
Blaine released the tension of his internal battle and buries his face slightly into Kurt’s shoulder and squeezes tighter.
He is only alone if he lets himself be - and he knows he doesn’t have to be - Kurt will always be there.

they breathe together
Each silently recounting the path that brought them here - regret and thankfulness colliding

Blaine drops the wall he had built around himself and lets the emotions go he was working so hard to keep hidden.
The grip lessens as the understanding grows
He no longer holds on out of fear of losing Kurt - but rather holds on to that which will love him unconditionally until he is strong enough to stand on his own again.
 A small tear escapes onto his eyelashes and shows the first sign of cleansing the pain, hurt and fear away from his soul

Kurt holds onto that which is more precious and valuable to him than anything else in the world.
In the end it does come down to this - them - it will always be them

They may take turns being the stronger or weaker of the two - but they will never not be equals.
This wasn’t a just a hug
It was reconnecting and affirming of who they are - and what they are to each other.

mleigh69:

THIS HUG.

This hug was so different than any other they had shared prior

typically, in the past, one or the other would initiate - and sometimes both would go in simultaneously - but always they would reciprocate and typically meet half way at the least.

But here - two things happen

Kurt steps in awkwardly in trying to determine how to approach this desperately needed moment of physical intimacy. He must convey through touch what he can’t find in words right now.

Blaine has changed - but so has he. Although they have been aware of one another - they have not tended to each others needs. Kurt’s guilt drives him into this hug seeking his own forgiveness.

Blaine didn’t respond or reciprocate initially

Still afraid and unsure

He waited for Kurt to wrap his arms around him and pull him into his chest

He heard what Kurt had said - and he knew in his heart it was truthful and honest

But he has a doubt that had clearly been eating him up and letting go of it that quickly just didn’t happen

Kurt didn’t just wrap his arms around Blaine in a “I am here to sooth you way” or to show domination in Blaine’s time of weakness.

He knew that this touch needed to convey a lack of judgment and superiority. He knew this had to show equality and bring them back to middle ground.

 His left arm went under Blaine’s right and wrapped around his back. As his left went around Blaine’s left shoulder and came around to the right shoulder.

It was that touch and grip to Blaine’s right shoulder that brought up Blaine’s right hand to find Kurt’s back and grip with his fingers.

Immediately following with his left arm and hand which found hold on Kurt’s left shoulder.

Blaine didn’t just return the hug at this point - he grasped onto Kurt. absorbing and accepting all that Kurt was giving him.

Once they settled into the hug - they existed in this moment for just them

Blaine released the tension of his internal battle and buries his face slightly into Kurt’s shoulder and squeezes tighter.

He is only alone if he lets himself be - and he knows he doesn’t have to be - Kurt will always be there.

they breathe together

Each silently recounting the path that brought them here - regret and thankfulness colliding

Blaine drops the wall he had built around himself and lets the emotions go he was working so hard to keep hidden.

The grip lessens as the understanding grows

He no longer holds on out of fear of losing Kurt - but rather holds on to that which will love him unconditionally until he is strong enough to stand on his own again.

 A small tear escapes onto his eyelashes and shows the first sign of cleansing the pain, hurt and fear away from his soul

Kurt holds onto that which is more precious and valuable to him than anything else in the world.

In the end it does come down to this - them - it will always be them

They may take turns being the stronger or weaker of the two - but they will never not be equals.

This wasn’t a just a hug

It was reconnecting and affirming of who they are - and what they are to each other.

I’m just so scared that you’re gonna… keep changing, and you’re gonna keep getting stronger, and then one day you’re gonna wake up and you’re gonna realize that “I don’t love him anymore.” (c) Blaine

large-flightless-bird:

IS THAT THE SAME GUY WHO DID THE GIF WHERE HE POURS JUICE AND IT HITS THE TABLE AS SOLID BLOCKS?????????? CAUSE THAT FUCKED ME UP

large-flightless-bird:

IS THAT THE SAME GUY WHO DID THE GIF WHERE HE POURS JUICE AND IT HITS THE TABLE AS SOLID BLOCKS?????????? CAUSE THAT FUCKED ME UP

I’m just so scared that you’re gonna keep changing, and you’re gonna keep getting stronger. And then one day you’re gonna wake up and you’re gonna realize that “I don’t love him anymore”. 

(Source: darrennchris)

misqueue:

adampascalfan:

vampireisabitstrong:

the-cimmerians:


…and one day, you’re gonna wake up and realize that "I don’t love him anymore."

Core wounds.

You want to talk about what his dad did?
I don’t think, as a caveat and disclaimer, that Blaine’s dad ever did wake up and not love Blaine anymore. But Blaine’s perception is what we have, and what matters. Blaine believes his dad tried to make him straight. He was, maybe, 13. To him, it was a kind of rejection, and he’s been dealing with it silently for six years, nearly. For Blaine, there’s a very real chance that people will one day realise that he’s not what they want, or expect, or love.
And then they’ll leave him.

Not to mention…that’s pretty much exactly what happened to him when it came to his friends.  We have no indication he’s still in touch with people from his first school.  (He straight out said he didn’t think anyone cared about his issues there).  The Warblers who he thought were his friends turned on him and sent him to the hospital. He hung out with the seniors of New Directions when he transferred and well we all remember how he felt at the beginning of his senior year.  

And there’s also Cooper, whose approval and affection Blaine experiences as conditional and often randomly mean. Cooper criticizes and tears him down, over and over. (And what on earth are Cooper’s core wounds here? Can we please meet the parents?) So Blaine maybe expects this treatment from the people who [say they] love him. It’s not that he doesn’t believe Kurt loves him, but that he doesn’t believe love can be this strong, unconditional thing when it’s directed at him. And this makes me so fucking sad for Blaine, because I have experienced this in my own life, and that feeling that you have to perform well and be perfect and pleasing 25/8 to deserve kindness, affection, and love that [feels like it] is always at risk of being withdrawn in a capricious instant, leaves deep, deep scars.

misqueue:

adampascalfan:

vampireisabitstrong:

the-cimmerians:

…and one day, you’re gonna wake up and realize that "I don’t love him anymore."

Core wounds.

You want to talk about what his dad did?

I don’t think, as a caveat and disclaimer, that Blaine’s dad ever did wake up and not love Blaine anymore. But Blaine’s perception is what we have, and what matters. Blaine believes his dad tried to make him straight. He was, maybe, 13. To him, it was a kind of rejection, and he’s been dealing with it silently for six years, nearly. For Blaine, there’s a very real chance that people will one day realise that he’s not what they want, or expect, or love.

And then they’ll leave him.

Not to mention…that’s pretty much exactly what happened to him when it came to his friends.  We have no indication he’s still in touch with people from his first school.  (He straight out said he didn’t think anyone cared about his issues there).  The Warblers who he thought were his friends turned on him and sent him to the hospital. He hung out with the seniors of New Directions when he transferred and well we all remember how he felt at the beginning of his senior year.  

And there’s also Cooper, whose approval and affection Blaine experiences as conditional and often randomly mean. Cooper criticizes and tears him down, over and over. (And what on earth are Cooper’s core wounds here? Can we please meet the parents?) So Blaine maybe expects this treatment from the people who [say they] love him. It’s not that he doesn’t believe Kurt loves him, but that he doesn’t believe love can be this strong, unconditional thing when it’s directed at him. And this makes me so fucking sad for Blaine, because I have experienced this in my own life, and that feeling that you have to perform well and be perfect and pleasing 25/8 to deserve kindness, affection, and love that [feels like it] is always at risk of being withdrawn in a capricious instant, leaves deep, deep scars.

(Source: evan-blainers)